For Him...
I still can't believe it's over. And all because of what? That?
My conscience keeps telling me I should've stayed. I should've tried to walk with you and pick you up when you're on your high and low. But I look back at the night when we've ended everything and you made it pretty clear than you'd rather walk on this phase alone. I am not going to try to push myself unto someone who doesn't want my help or my company.
I wish you'd grow up and see the shit you're putting yourself in.
I wish you'd regret that you'd let me go because you can't let go of something so temporary.
I wish you'd see that as hard as you try, you can never get someone like me again - who cared and loved you so much despite who you are and were.
I wish you'd try to be a better person than the people around you.
I'll move on, like I always do. It hurts like a bitch now and it takes all my energy to just keep myself from calling you. But I'll see that one day I will stop hurting and I won't even get any more urges every time I read your name. I love and loved you, but time will heal that anomaly and one day, I'll finally stop loving you.
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