Ineffable.

Random musings of Chie Cerrafon

I know you read my blog...

posted on Saturday, 12 July 2014 @ 23:19

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I know it feels like I don't give up. That I'll always be the first one to patch things up to not lose you.
When I asked for space, I took it back.
When I asked for us to cool off, I took it back too.

I know my threats are becoming worthless every time I make them.

I know you know that I don't have the heart to lose you...

But if there's one thing I know you have no idea about...
Is the fact that I get tired.
And one day I'll be so tired, I have no other choice but to just stop trying to catch up with you.
And no matter how I try to walk... to crawl...
I can't.

Even if I don't want to stop
Even if I don't want to let you continue walking without me.
I can't do anything about.
I can't.

UPDATE:
I'm not stopping.
We're still going strong(?)
I'm giving way to what he feels is right.
And I'm suppressing my opinion.
And For the love of God, I hope opinions are not permanent.

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Why I want to move out of my parent's house so bad...

posted on Saturday, 21 June 2014 @ 17:53

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I don't have issues with my parents. My mom and dad are the best set in the world. My mom is sweet and rough in the right situations. And my dad is the kind of guy I would want to marry (except that I don't want an Asian for a husband). But I've dreamed of being on my own ever since I realized that I'm the kind of person who loves solitude and independence.

I want to be the one who'll figure out what I would eat in the next week. I want to learn to expand my culinary skills beyond frying stuff.
I want to be the kind of person who'll clean her own place because I want to, and not because I was told to.
I want to be my own curfew.
I want to feel unrestrained but at the same time, I want to learn how to be responsible for my own self.

Independence in the real life is scary.
Dependence is safe but comfort zones aren't where the adventures and growing begins.

Life agenda:
Save up for my own place.

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Samsung should make me an ambassador for S4 Zoom

posted on Wednesday, 12 March 2014 @ 17:40

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Barnes and Noble
Supervisor: What is that? *points at my phone*
Cashier 1: Is that a phone and a camera?
Me: *flips it around* Yes. Hahah.
Cashier 2: Could you stay around and show your phone to these guys?
Supervisor: Leave it to Samsung to do something like this. How many pixels?
Me: Sixteen.
Supervisor: Seriously, you just made my day!
Me: *laughs* Have a nice day you guys.

Starbucks Temecula
Customer: *eye contact*
Me: *smiles*
Customer: What is at the back of your phone?
Me: Ohh, it's the camera lens.
Customer: It's a camera?
Me: No, it's a phamera.
Customer: A phamera?
Me: A phone and a camera.

Dos Lagos Outlets
Me: Hi! Do you happen to have a case for my phone?
Customer: Let's see.
Me: *shows it to him*
Customer: Oh my lord, what is that?
Me: Samsung S4 Zoom.
Customer: Can I take a picture of it?
Me: Sure go ahead.
Customer: *takes a photo of my phone* When you chance upon here again, I'll have a case for that!
Me: Aww, thank you!

Walmart
Sales Person: That's a really cool casing.
Me: Oh, it's not a casing.
SP: It's a phone? What is it?
Me: Samsung S4 Zoom.
SP: Okay, I work around phones and I've never seen something like that. That's so awesome.

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Musical Preference

posted on Wednesday, 26 February 2014 @ 04:42

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I'm only a 'legit' fan of a musician/band/artist if I love, not just one of their songs, but the whole album (or maybe at least 10 of their songs). So given that premise, I am a fan of (diverse selection ahead) Jason Mraz, Michael Buble, John Legend, Mike Posner (although it might be because he resembled someone I had a crush on), Allen Stone, One Direction (h8r go away), Arctic Monkeys, Foster the People, etc...

...And my newest craze... Haim!!

Danielle, Alana and Este Haim

I just listened to them on a whim and I cannot stop my Haim playlist!! After Wiki-stalking them, I realized they were the musical guest on one of my favorite episode on SNL this season. I mean, even when One Direction was Paul Rudd's musical guest, I usually skip the performances since I watch SNL for the sketches alone and I can't wait to get me some Meyers. So I rewatched Josh Hutcherson's episode and went straight to Haim's performance. Este's just a gem with her facial expressions and red lipstick. Danielle Haim was a bit shaky but still awesome. And Alana is just sooooo cute.

They remind me of Alanis Morissette with their straight-forward hair. And is it just me, or do they resemble Troian Bellisario

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What's in my carry on bag?

posted on Monday, 24 February 2014 @ 00:44

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I've been meaning to test out my carry-on luggage for a while now. So far, I've only tested if my laptop fits in my bag.

1 - Nikon D3100. I really really wish I could put this in my check-in luggage. But my dad did that once and the lens has been a pain in the ass ever since. Charger. You cannot fathom how happy I am that this charger allows 110V. I don't know what you call this.
2 - Gum. Gums never really did help my ear pressure problem but I do want to nibble on something once in a while.
3 - My extra pair of spectacles. Although, it's grade is 50 lower than actual... better prepared than sorry.
4 - Longchamp Le Pliage Large - Long Handle. I would never ever regret buying a genuine one. This bag is so sturdy, I might as well pack my parents in it.
5 - Sudoku. Sudoku amuses me so much, I used to do one puzzle (in pen!) before I go to sleep. 2 random books I got from Booksale. For whenever technology starts to show it's weakness
6 -iPad Mini. My iPad has a battery life of 4-5 hours which is equivalent to 1.5 books, good enough. Wish I had a Kobo instead of this. 2014 Planner. Where else to plan the rest of your life than n-feet up in the air.
7 - Laptop This laptop made me wish I still had my Macbook Air, it's bulky. iPad charger. If you're wondering why it's in blue, then you have no idea how the original one's price outrages me. Powerbank. I dub thee for my cellphone's exclusive use. Earpods. The best thing from Apple in my opinion. This has been with me for more than a year now.
8 - 18mm-55mm Nikon Lens.
9 - Bunch of pens and liners.
10 - Wireless Mouse. Because my laptop's touchpad is so glitchy.
11 - Wallet. Got this from Forever21 through saving my allowance. Worth skipping lunch.
12 - HyberCurl Maybelline Mascara + Blush Brush + Tiny Bottle of Victoria's Secret Pear Glaze + Maybelline Dream Liquid Mouse Foundation in Honey Beige + TBS Tea Tree Skin Clearing Lotion + Maybelline ColorSensational Lipstick in Rich Plum + Nivea Lip Balm for Men + Pot of Crushed unknown Blush. I just noticed how much of a Maybelline girl I am. I wanted to bring my moisturizer (Olay) instead of the TBS lotion but I think my oily-face is reserved when no one can see me.

This is what it looks like when I try to put it in my bag. Minus the personal necessities (#12). It looks spacious but whenever I try to carry it, I could almost hear my shoulders whimpering in defeat. I'll just have to fake my way through check-in that my bag weighs normal.

I have an attachable document purse where I'll put my passport, ticket, pens etc. Makes for easy journey through immigration, check-in and boarding.

Oh look a monopod, a messy bed and a very distressed girl. Sorry bout my hair and get up. I had a terrible headache which woke me up constantly last night so I'm not in my best disposition right now. Notice my necklace turned the wrong way.

Anyway, I just found out my phone's (S4 Zoom) tripod mount is actually standard sized which allowed use for this monopod. YAAAYYY for selfies. More awkward scenarios for me to be in!!!

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